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Goodbye 17<3 [16 Sep 2007|11:25pm] This right here right now will be my last written entry as a 17 year old girl. In about 35 minutes, I will be an adult. A legal adult. Goodbye to my Golden Year. I think it's been the best so far. But I know that there are only bigger and better things to come :] Here's to adulthood! (And having to pay for my own gas ewww :( ) 2 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

In a matter of hours. [30 Jul 2007|09:26pm] Today I am set to come home after 3 weeks of being in Italy. I have this awful feeling that once I get back it will still feel like I am gone. I think a lot of things have changed in 3 weeks. Am I ready for them? Somebody told me.

The Purple Bottle. [21 May 2007|05:43pm] [ music | The Purple Bottle -Animal Collective. ] "I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah I think you are the sweetest thing I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud I like it when I bump you an accident's a truth gate I'm humbled in your pretty lense I'll hold you, dont you go Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet. Hallelujah! Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative, I know... Well I'd like to spread your perfume around the old apartment Could we live together and agree on the same wares? A trapeze is a bird cage even if its empty and definitely fits the room And we would too. And my dear dear dear khalana I talk too much about you Their ears are getting tired of me singing all the night through. Lets just talk together You and me and me and you And if theres nothing much to say... Well, silence is a bore Can I tell you that you are the purple in me? Can I call you just to hear you, would you care? When I saw you put your purple finger on me There's a feelin' in your bottle Found your bottle, found your heart Gives a feeling from your bottled little part" 2 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

3/17/07. [18 Mar 2007|12:46am] I have a boyfriend :] ♥ 10 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

Why hello :] [12 Mar 2007|02:48pm] Weekly Love Horoscope for March 12, 2007 You're walking on air on Monday and Tuesday. It's like the scene in a romantic comedy (all romantic comedies have this scene) where the main character realizes that the person they love loves them back, and the music swells, and the camera dwells on the two of them walking down the street. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday are more administrative than romantic (you might spend a good portion of time organizing your desk, for instance), but the weekend returns you to a classic romantic motif: the part in the movie where you two try to work out where this is going and what it means. Somebody told me.

k-i-s-s-i-n-g. [23 Feb 2007|11:01pm] “Just kiss me” is an over used feminine phrase. I wont lie, I’ve used it before, but aside from, “I love you” they are the three most thought provoking words any human can utter. First and foremost, one cannot, “just kiss” someone else. There’s always some kind of thought that goes into a kiss. Whether its been put off for weeks or its in that moment right before your lips meet, someone is thinking something. Then, you have the kiss itself. There’s an exchange of hearts without a single word spoken. Even those of us that falsely yet courageously tell our friends, “it meant nothing” know that part of us is now with that person. Lover’s lips can scream comfort or heartbreak, while lips of strangers proclaim, “I’m most likely a mistake, but one worth making!” Then comes the worst part of this, “just kiss me” madness: the moments after. Following the lip lock are thousands of questions. Is this goodbye? Why did that happen? What have I gotten myself into? These thoughts grind themselves into our subconscious preventing us from sleeping. We suddenly begin to listen to every song that you could possibly relate to your situation, and find yourself crying for no reason at all, relating to the words we hear rhythmically pounding in our heads. You wonder because he kisses you yet you don’t know exactly what it means. You want answers to impossible questions all because you had to, “just kiss him.” Without human intervention, as soon as lips touch, both hearts barricade themselves behind walls of steel and prepare to shatter. Through thirty seconds of passion, we open ourselves to delight or devastation. No matter the outcome, we’ve willingly made ourselves vulnerable. No one can protect us once we’ve kissed someone. Even in the most casual kiss goodnight holds a hint of inquiry. Still, we as humans…we as girls, freely risk our hearts. Why? Because even though we say we’ve given up on love and want nothing to do with the opposite sex, we secretly know that sometime when we least expect it, were “just going to kiss” that one guy and suddenly, we know we’ll never have to “just kiss” anyone ever again. Somebody told me.

Shake it up. [21 Feb 2007|10:16pm] I never loved nobody fully Always one foot on the ground And by protecting my heart truly I got lost in the sounds I hear in my mind All these voices I hear in my mind all these words I hear in my mind all this music And it breaks my heart. And suppose I never met you Suppose we never fell in love Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft Suppose I never ever saw you Suppose we never ever called Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall All my friends say that of course its gonna get better... 2 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

The Secret. [08 Feb 2007|03:44pm] I choose today to give myself the best life ever. Here we go! 2 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

I really like this. [22 Jan 2007|03:40pm] "If only it were possible for us to see farther than our knowledge reaches, and even a little beyond the outworks of our presentiment, perhaps we would bear our sadnesses with greater trust than we have in our joys. For they are the moments when something new has entered us, something unknown; our feelings grow mute in shy embarrassment, everything in us withdraws, a silence arises, and the new experience, which no one knows, stands in the midst of it all and says nothing." 3 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

Cutieee. [08 Jan 2007|12:02am] I am obsessed with Hello Kitty. 3 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

2007! [01 Jan 2007|12:07am] Aren't we supposed to be living in space already? :] Happy New Year everyone. I hope that you are safe, healthy, and most of all, happy. I hope that you get everything you wish for and that this becomes the best year of your life. I've got a feeling it's going to be mine. <3 Somebody told me.

Random thought of the day. [23 Dec 2006|12:25pm] Is it possible to care too much? Who judges how much is "too much"? Somebody told me.

He's right. [21 Sep 2006|09:17pm] [ music | Chasing Cars -Snow Patrol. ] Yort891: so i decided to tell you that its ok for you to be happy every once in a while ...I think that that is just what I needed to hear. ♥ 3 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

Seventeeeeen. [17 Sep 2006|01:10am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | My Love -Justin Timberlake. ] Today is my birthday! :] 4 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

Wish time. [08 Sep 2006|11:26pm] [ mood | exhausted ] I think I've stopped believing in 11:11. :( 3 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

These days. [20 Aug 2006|12:50am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | These Days -Mates of State. ] I've been out walking I don't do too much talking these days These days - These days I seem to think a lot About the things that I forgot to do And all the times I've had the chance to I stopped my rambling I don't do too much gambling these days These days - These days I seem to think about How all the changes came about my way And I wonder if I'll see another hide-a-way I had a lover I don't think I'll risk another these days These days - And if I seem to be afraid To live the life that I have made in song It's just that I've been losing so long Then I'd stop my dreaming I don't do too much scheming these days These days - These days I sit on corner stones And count the time in quarter tones to ten Please don't confront me with my failures 'Cos I have not forgotten them 2 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

The sick and dying. [19 Aug 2006|05:22pm] [ music | A Better Son/Daughter -Rilo Kiley. ] But the lows are so extreme That the good seems fucking cheap And it teases you for weeks in its absence But you'll fight and you'll make it through You'll fake it if you have to And you'll show up for work with a smile And you'll be better You'll be smarter More grown up and a better daughter or son And a real good friend And you'll be awake You'll be alert You'll be positive though it hurts And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends And you'll be a real good listener You'll be honest You'll be brave You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful You'll be happy Somebody told me.

Tell it like a chronicle. [19 Aug 2006|12:11am] [ music | Ha Ha -Mates of State. ] I can't tell what kind of life I've led today. All that's known is what's debatable again Somebody told me.

Sometimes. [11 Aug 2006|07:31am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Little Razorblade -Pink Spiders. ] Take care of me ♥ Please. Somebody told me.

Don't blame me. [02 Aug 2006|01:10am] [ mood | enthralled ] "Sometimes I think I have too many ideas. Don't blame me blame the coffee. I love listening to music on headphones walking down any 'village' section of a big city. Anything that makes me feel like I'm in a movie - cobblestone sidewalks, small alley-ways, the local flower shop with white daisies displayed on the sidewalk. Allow music to accompany your normal routine every chance you get 'cause it makes every passing glance from an attractive woman feel like the end of the world - everyday things become dramatic. It's great. exclamation point. Don't blame me blame the coffee, 'cause I can't really be expected to take responsibility for my words can I? I mean, caffeine is a drug no matter what you say." -Landon Pigg 3 Already knew.| Somebody told me.

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